Letter to A.F

sorry..aiks..just can't control..i promised you..but i just can't stand..the feeling is onli increasing..well,the best way is leave you..make you du lan me..haha..sure you will feel annoy if you know this plan..but is okay..you will have a better life..you can de la..me only ma..nothing sepcial.just a normal people..not liang zai somemore..=p..i really shocked..haha..love you leh...we had been too close..don't worry la.no one will smell you hair anymore..no one will punch your arm anymore..i will remember you forever..sometimes,felling can't control..for ages,wan ling is always first..suddenly,you rush to so in front..i can't hold..i jealous other boy date you..very jealous..i jealous you touch other boy..i really love you..but..haiz..who are you??you are school flower leh..i am nothing..not liang zai somemore..any of your ex is better then me..if i tell you i love you,sure you feel not comfortable right?haha..but i really got a bit disappoint at you..we know each other through feeling..you should know me..am i that small gas??just because of your joke,i angry at you??impossible right??haha..never mind la..at least we got sweet memories before right??thanks ya..i am not acting as if i am very great..i know..i am very selfish..but at least you won't feel sad right??aiks..well..about the being your future's son open dad..aiks..future de thing...see bah..maybe got chance de..kakakaka..i must be dreaming then...you are much more better then me..frog want to eat goose..haha..>.<..aiks..i admit..i plan everything..i know that thing will make you angry de thing still wanna do meh??i am not sohai..is impossible i will make you angry with such word..i wasn't hoping to get anything from you..but..letting you hate me..haiz..maybe is a better way..i really appreciate that you want me this friend..from your eyes..i can feel it..really..but i have to stop myself..as you told me before..don't ever love you..because you don't wanna hurt me..i can't stop myself..this is the best way..i tried many ways you know??but i always fail..haha.the Friday before holiday..i tried..but i regret..then ask for your apologize..you gave me chance..i really like you,you know??but this like has convert to love..i have to stop before anything bad happen..you really charming sometime you know??haha..this thing only wei ting,mee kee and wan ling know..yvonne also know..i told her..but she didn't diao me..never mind la..i dy expected..i discovered that i love you during the holiday.before this..nothing happened..i started to change when i love you..i choose to cut it down..i told you before..you say don't..then i just let the feeling grow it self..i know my action is the most sohai,selfish..but i can't find any way anymore..i can't tell anyone..not even yvonne..sure she will tell you..i have no right to love you..no cost..no nothing..i am nothing..but you are not..you are almost everything..your smile..your hair's smell..your fat fat de neck and arm..haha..haiz..lastly,sorry for everything i gave and thanks for everything you gave me...i am very sure..you won't feel anything losing me..a bit sad maybe will..but you will forget it..because you disappoint at me..and..i am nothing..i hope you won't forget me..hope you can place me in a part of your memories..a small dot will do..i not dare to face the fact the i love you..because is totally impossible we both..no need wait you say no..because it is more hurt...hope you happy forever..if can,i hope to be your friend back..really..but must without the feeling of love..is not like anymore..is love.holy shit..i love Tan Ai Fan..WTF..haiz..i must dream and think too much..=p..bye then..when you read this letter,i am sure you dy forgive me..thanks anyway..












after you read this letter,i am sure..you will hate me more..this is fake..