loneliness..

it is consuming me..it is feeding on my heart..i am lost..i am changed..to an half otaku..i started to hate female..not hate actually..is disappointed at them..my computer is better..at least it won't angry at me..hemp..girl??sucks...birthday is coming..i am scared..i scare i have to celebrate it alone..i hate loneliness..you guys abandoned me..i am changing...