Saturday, August 29, 2009

cool down again

haiz..just 3 month pass..then need to cool down again..wat the hell??T.T..i am so bad..i am guilty.what the hell am i doing??so pathetic beastly move..I hate myself..I am useless..

Thursday, August 27, 2009

day before..

today..she was not in mood..i tried my best to cheer her up..but yet..she ignore me..and..i was acting as gay at my theater..I really can't take it..but yet..i take it..because of her..if i didn't take,the whole thing need to be change..i take it because of her..seriously..i hate gays and sissy..is impossible for me to act in front of so many people like this..i think i love her damn much..but did she appreciate it??i hope bah..

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

days continue..

today..while i was with her,i was acting..oh my god..i was damn professional in acting.i act happy all the evening..i found it tired..seriously tired..then i bath and go into her rooms..nothing much happened..my so called 'unangryable friend'(means a friend who her willing to fuck up with me) friend angry at her.then she straight text him,msn him..i am pretty much sure she won't do that to me...I am speechless..nothing much more happened..I won't care anymore..I will take all by myself..I am always happy..because i am wearing a happy mask..No one knows my heart is crying..no one knows my heart is bleeding..no one knows..I swear..i won't show it anymore..Friday is coming..didn't expect much..She won't give a damn..she was date with another guy..to have MY dinner..she like bah..i am trying to heal my heart..

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

meanwhile..

hemm..i touch her..what am i doing??!!T.T..i feel like i am polluting my relationship..Shit..i let lust come to my brain..what am i thinking??i feel myself guilty.. I feel like raper..I am a beast!!!i know that i should not get too near to her!!i know i can stop..but i can't..she really had nothing..this is all pay up..I feel sorry to her to have a boyfriend like me..that why i said..I must treat her good..

Monday, August 24, 2009

first day..

yea..i know..it would be very hard..I will try..i will keep everything myself...today..she play with a boy..the boy eventually touch her..i hate it..but i still keep smiling..i got nothing to say..i WON'T say a word..i dy promise myself..then in the evening,she wanna went out with the boy again assume.i am not that scare because that boy have a nicer girlfriend then her hell lot.i was sad because she dump me...she text me..i really don't feel like caring anymore..but it is totally impossible for me to do that..i still love her so much..i ask about stuff i need to know,then i let her go..My heart was 99.9999999percent don't want she to go..but it won't use..she will still be going.i know it..just let her go bah..after all,she dy decided then only ask..i don't know how much can i take.

P.S by the way,xian,i know you are my only one best friend who read this.so,i also open another blog called ilovesingyi.blogspot.com..go and have a look at it..it talks about happy stuff between me and her..

Sunday, August 23, 2009

一个跟朋友谈的恋爱。。

今天是八月二十二日。在六天,就是我和我女朋友的三月恋爱日了。可是发生了一些不愉快的事。。她说我对她的朋友太差了。因为,我常常不爽她的朋友。今天,我的学院最好的朋友之一讲我了。他说,我绑得我女友太紧。。可是他重来不知道我的难受。。我女友也怪罪于我。。她说,如果只可以选一个的话,她会选那个朋友。。她严重地伤害了我。她会管我的感受吗?不。。没人会。。因为在这事里,我是坏人。。大坏人。。我决定了。。放手。。不会在这样了。。她伤地我太深了。不管了。反正她也不会在乎我。不管我对她多好,都是这样。。算了。。我不会再问。不会再烦。就像以前这样。。因为她伤我太深了。。

Saturday, August 22, 2009

So call friendship..

Fuck you my friend..Fuck you..you are a useless piece of shit..you make me and my relationship getting worst..you are useless..if ever you let me know that you like my girl,then go fuck yourselves...i hate you..really..if ever you make me and my girl argue..i forever WILL NOT ever try to fuck you dy...so call friends..you don't forget..who is the one with you when you are hate by your groups member..you better don''t let me know you love my girl..if not,i swear to god..you will die..

Thursday, August 20, 2009

理会。。

今天,我又为妳哭了。。你看到吗??我哭你会有任何反应吗??因该不会有吧。。今天。。在我情绪最低落的时候,你知道我是多么的想要抱妳吗?你知道吗?你会理会我吗??你朋友哭时,你烦恼了好多天。。而我呢?你会在乎吗?还是我只是当你想恋爱时,才想到的一个人?你就不可以在乎我多一点吗?就多一点就够了。。我的要求不过分啊。。你喜欢用你那怪怪的脾气来折磨我吗?你知道我有多伤心吗?你会在意我吗?你知道我有很多话想对你说吗?就在乎我多一点点就好了。。

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

how long can it last??

she is with me now...on my leg..sleeping soundly..she looks tired..aiks..but she got asssesment tomorrow..hemm..wat to do??haiz..study till sleep..so ke lian!!!ko lian tai..lately,she is kinna fan..haiz..thanks to that fucking chi bai chao hai donkey asshole jin sxxxx..oh my fucking god..that bitch is driving my girl crazy..haiz..i know my girl love me..but she don't really know how to show..and i admit,sometimes,it is so annoying..but seriously serious..i think i can't lost her now..haha..i love her damn much la wei..haiz..thats why i ask..hemm..when will this relationship ends??seriously,i hope it won't..because i love her..the reason is easy and simple..i LOVE her..but..she seldom cAres..but who cares..hehe..i love enough..

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

haiz.

fuck..kena go home one week..is damn boring here..no $$..haiz..yesterday she called me when i was in cinema..she cried..she was scare..but i was no beside her when she need me..what the hell am i doing here?am i a good boyfriend??i damn miss her..wish can be with her now..

Monday, August 3, 2009

Yesterday..

I feel really sad..My parents just scold me..And my girlfriend back late like hell..we was suppose to have a talk today..but why is this happening??maybe i should free my hand..